He was
older and controlled. His voice had that polished steadiness that made people
trust him. She liked watching him try to maintain it. She sat across from him,
legs crossed, voice soft, and said she felt numb.
He leaned in, nodded, and asked about her childhood. She watched him watching
her.
By the
third session, she began to feed him little pieces of herself, half-truths. A dream
about drowning. A memory of her father’s abuse. The way men made her feel both
powerful and invisible.
“Sometimes,”
she said, tracing the rim of her teacup, “I fantasize about men I shouldn’t.”
His pen
stopped mid-air. A flicker, tiny, but there. She caught it. Filed it away.
He
started calling her brave. Insightful. Honest. She started
crossing her legs more slowly. The room grew warmer.
By the
fifth session, she stopped pretending to cry. He didn’t ask why.
Their
affair began the night she stayed after hours. She said she wanted to talk
about shame.
He said, softly, “You don’t have to feel guilty for wanting comfort.” His hand
brushed her knee. It lingered.
When he
kissed her, he told himself it was human. That he cared. That he understood her
better than anyone.
After
that, everything blurred; his desk, the couch, and the taste of ginger tea and
guilt. He began to text her things no therapist should. She began to log them
all.
Each
night she wrote her notes: Subject response escalating, boundary
degradation accelerating. She was meticulous and precise.
Sometimes,
when he was inside her, she’d whisper,
“Do you
still think I’m your patient?”
He’d
groan, “You’re mine.” She’d smile in the dark.
When she
disappeared, he thought it was his fault. That he’d broken her. That she’d
relapsed, fled, and crumbled.
Two weeks
later, an envelope arrived at his office, it had no return address.
Inside:
photocopies of his notes, his messages, photos of his hands on her waist, his
face bent over her crotch.
At the top of the file:
Case
Study 47: Male Therapist, Age 41.
Subject demonstrates deteriorating boundaries when exposed to simulated
vulnerability. Displays confusion between empathy and arousal.
At the
bottom:
Diagnosis:
predictable.
Treatment complete. Patient discharged.
He sat
there, staring at the words, the scent of her perfume still clinging to the
pages.
For the first time in his career, he understood what it meant to be studied.
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